My Chaos


The long weekend? The anticipated summer heat wave? It could have been a series of events that resulted in my insomnia and restlessness. I just couldn’t sleep, my mind was racing. Instead I cleaned out old baby clothes and did started some sewing projects that I have had on my to-do list for far too long. This continued all night, and before I knew it, 4:30am had come and I was still wide awake. No sense going to sleep now, I thought – the kids wake just before 7am. So I stayed up….


The girls didn’t wake up until almost 10am that day. What the…?? Does that just figure? Mom’s beg, plead and dream of their kids sleeping in, and finally when they do – I can’t enjoy the sleep-in myself.

I was on the tired side all day long, but didn’t nap. I got lots of tasks done and even enjoyed the sunshine with the kids for most of the day. By 8pm I was exhausted and excited to finally get some sleep. But of course, chaos struck and again parenthood threw a curve ball at me.

While I was downstairs, I heard Katie’s cry. No doubt the twins were fighting, like always, Yet in the cries I knew that this was different. Katie, poor girl, couldn’t move her left arm or hand. I still don’t know what happened, yet instead of sleep we spent the next 4.5 hours in the emergency room.

 holding a teddy bear

‘Probably not a break’ is what I was told, yet a form and sling she must wear until a re-evaluation later this week. That night, for the second night in a row, I layed next to my baby, awake, listening to her moaning in her sleep. A Mother can’t sleep when her child is broken, even though that Mom hadn’t slept in 32 hours.

Little Katie’s in a lot of pain, and of course this is a hinderance on the summer play. It’s super hot these days, and we’re all itching for a dip in the water. Instead we are opting for Homemade Banana Pudding Pops and blowing bubbles on the deck.

Oh, my poor babe – but, she’s still smiling!

A child



  1. She is adorable! My kids are grown and still yet if I know they are sick or hurting in any way
    Then I still get no sleep. They will always be babies! I hope she is all better soon.

  2. Poor girl! 3 of my kids have had broken limbs and it’s def not fun, especially in summer. My youngest broke her leg days after an unrelated surgery and a week before our beach vacation. Kids.

  3. Oh I do hope it’s not a break! I broke my collar bone when I was 4. I actually remember it. It must of hurt.

    Try to get some sleep. Maybe take a Tylenol PM. It’s not like I encourage drugs, but my mom has to take it with joint pain sometimes; she says it knocks her out.

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